Never did I think I would end up where I am right now. Sitting here in my bed, listening to music and having my morning coffee, only because my headache is too strong for tea, thinking about the past events of this year. It has been crazy to say the least. A crazy I don't regret or want to change. Life has a way of making its way. Whether it be something you want to endure or something you just want to pass quickly so you can move on. This year was full of life. Changes happened but change is inevitable. I love my life. I have always loved my life. I have a family support system unlike anything else. Watching the pride on my parents faces when I made the national team this year for Darts was amazing. I honestly didn't think I would make it but a few good days and there I was. Sitting 4th on the provincial team. Also the support I received when I moved back home with the kids after I made the decision to leave my marriage. They are amazing people, if you don't have great parents to encourage you and push you along I am sorry. Friends are also my greatest support system. They have seen me at my best and at my worst. I am crazy at best. I have the greatest friends who support my crazy and all right there with me. We don't always see eye to eye on everything but who does? You have to have different idea and ideals in order to maintain a healthy relationship. If everyone thought the same thing the world would suck. I pretty much have an opinion for everything.
2014 has been full of ups and downs. I saw Hedley twice......highlight for sure. Nothing like seeing your favourite band up close and "personal" Saw the Backstreet Boys with my two greatest and oldest friends. That was phenomenal. Spending time with my two favourite people is always a great thing. The shenanigans we get up too is always fun. Also took my son to go see Blake Shelton. His first concert. I loved it and I hope that he enjoyed himself. Also took in a few under the radar bands. The Gay Nineties was amazing as well as The Darcys. I love music. If I could afford to go to all bands that come through the city I would. I am looking forward to music and concerts in 2015.
I have said it before it has been a crazy year. Work changed. I have been basically at the same desk for 7.5 years. Working for some of the greatest doctors in Saskatchewan. I had the same 6 doctors for a good almost 3 years. In August I moved to another area in the clinic and work for 4 more of the greatest Doctors in the province. I love my job. I love the people I work with. I have built great relationships over the past almost 8 years. The change wasn't easy. I liked my old desk. A lot. It was a blast. Never a dull moment for sure. Always laughing. My new desk is quieter, not the central place of people. Still never a dull moment. The doctors are just as funny. I have known them all for a long time but not seeing them everyday (yes that happens in a clinic with 25 Doctors) and not working with them on a daily basis before I moved made it different. Now we all have our systems. I have complete control over my area....thus feeding my OCD a little. I like my job.
If you aren't happy in your life, change it. Be your kind of happy. No one else can make you happy but you. Take the steps necessary to become who you have always wanted to be. Nothing is out of reach. You can do and be anything. Don't let negative people in. They will bring you down and stunt you. You are beautiful no matter what. We are all here for a reason.
To those in my life helping me discover me again, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have no idea how much I value you. For the most part you know you are. To those who I don't know that well but are still very important I thank you. To your little things, you posts on IG for me, and embracing me with only meeting me once, I thank you. For being ever as crazy as I am. And to the other who we haven't always seen eye to eye I thank you. For many things, for challenging me, for being an important part in one most important people in my life's life. For making me smile on basically daily basis, I cannot wait to actually meet you face to face next year.
Chickipoo....I miss you everyday. I love you. Skyping with you on Christmas eve was a big highlight for sure. It took way too long tho. We should have done it sooner. I can't wait for the next time. We should with the kids!!
"I am no longer terrified of being alone because I am no longer terrified of myself" ~ Jacob Hoggard